New Divine Light

I tried to be silent…

And still in a peaceful condition

I closed my eyes, and dreamed

Oh, how beautiful life will be…

If I can control every situation

If I can have what I hoped and desired…

All my dreams…

Oh

They all failed

And that’s all because of…

No, I wont and cant blame anybody

Except me..

Myself

i..

oh, how dreadful I am!

This is what makes me think that…

LIFE IS NOTHING BUT A TRASH

That loved to destroy both me and my dreams

Killed every single breathe I have

Suddenly..

as this thought plays in my mind..

i realized that i am sitting down in darkness

along with the misery, pain, and sorrow..

yes, i am blind..

i can see nothing..

and will never see anything..

if i stayed where i am right now..

Its true that in a darkness..

even my own shadow left me...

that is why I need God's Divine Light

to enlighten me..

not my condition...

but my perspective...

to open my eyes..

so i will see, the way He sees..

That is why now I utter a new prayer...

with the new desire to see the light...

GOD! Don’t leave me…

Never never let me go, Lord

Who am I without You?

NOTHING

A small dust that has no value

Please forgive me Lord

Give me a second chance..

Don’t take your spirit out from me

Holy Spirit, You must know how much I love and need You

I give my whole life to tell the world about Your Glory

Use me, shape me Lord

To be the one that You want

As long as You are still with me,

I promise I will bear anything that is necessary…

But don’t leave me, that’s all..

I love Your laws and promises

Both of them are as sweet as honey in my heart….

Am I boasting?

Oh Lord, I really need You

This world is like a terrible hell for me

And I can arrive until this day is just because of Your Hand and Protection

And Your Favor

Which I am craving so much…

Lord, if You left me, I’d better die..

Who else do I have in this world except You?

I fought in a battle with no one helped me

Except You…

God, please, never lose attention on my life

Don’t feel disgusted with my life..

I’m not perfect Lord

I’m a sinner

Please have mercy on me

Don’t judge me yet…

Please give me chances

Please have mercy

Oh God

I’m dead already without Your Mercy and Favor..

GOD, DON’T LEAVE ME

I believe I am not talking to an imaginary friend now, nor I myself am imaginary

But I am talking to the creator of the world and the whole universe

I am talking to my own Creator

And I am… His creation, kneeling down humbly before His throne, giving praises and thanks to Him

Let me see, Lord..

Bring me back to the beginning,...

to the Light You created...

open my eyes, so I will see..

give me new perspective...

that I will understand...

Great is Your faithfulness o God my Father…